Published on
October 29, 2009

It's been a while since I've blogged.  I know that when I read posts that start off with that sentence, I'm a little iffy about the self awareness.  I mean, honestly, who am I to believe that anyone is actually following this anyway?

Regardless, this is more of an update post than anything substantial, so I'm not blaming anyone for skipping this over.

I've gotten myself a new apartment in South Austin.  I have a job interview set up for blockbuster on Friday.  For those wondering:  yes, this is exactly the kind of job I'm looking for; one that doesn't require much work and is easy to quit should I feel the need.  Internet just got connected today, and as it turns out, could have been connected a week ago.  Still, the time without it has given me a chance to relax, because in between all the moving and the transition, I had almost forgotten that, until November 9th, I'm actually on a paid vacation.

In my time since the move I have done very little.

Saw a musical called Spring Awakening with Briana last Saturday.  I'll reserve my opinions for now.
Caught up on my reading with Donald Miller's "A Million Miles in a Thousand Years."  I recommend greatly.
Re-watched, this time with my roommate, the first 5 seasons of Entourage.
Finally got into a church after what seems like a couple years absence. 

Between all that we have been looking for jobs and taking care of business, but that's not what's important.

What is important is that in my time relaxing, I've been able to slowly get my mind prepared for this next step in my life.  No, this next chapter hasn't started yet.  I'll let you know when it hits me.  Until then, I'm just filling it with images of what's to come, and I'm really looking forward to it.

Seeing musicals has got me excited about school and being on stage again.  I've come to the conclusion a long time ago that I'm made for the stage, to perform, and I couldn't be more ready to pursue that life after a very long wait.

Entourage has got me thinking about finding a good Talent Agent, in hopes that I can propel my film career to the forefront and emerge onto the scene as quickly as possible.  I'm more than anxious to be in front of the camera as well as behind it, I just have to make sure I take it a step at a time so I don't screw things up for myself (as an image) and myself (as a person.)

Donald Miller has kept me down to earth, reminding me that I need to focus on my own story, and to stay true to myself in the process.  I've been searching for a church so that I can get back on track with God and with the things he has planned for me, so that I can give him all the glory of my success rather than be the egotistical arrogant actor that I know I can be without no thought whatsoever.

Overall, it's all long term stuff that I'm prepared for, but come November 9th I'll be ready for the next step, and that will be a college life that will provide a foundation for the rest of my existence.  I'm so burnt out by talking about the same subject though, and I just want it to be here already.  I guess it's only a matter of time, but again, now that things are getting settled I'll be sure to let you know the exact moment that things change for me.

I hope it's soon.

Mattias is an actor, writer, filmmaker, and editor currently living in Los Angeles, CA. He often writes about his observations about life, the human condition, spirituality, and relationships. He also enjoys writing about movies, pop culture, formula one, and current events. Often these writings are 'initial thoughts' and un-edited, as authentic as possible, and should be considered opinions. If you're interested in commenting on his work, or continuing the conversation, you should consider following him on Twitter or share an article on social media, where he would love to engage even further. Consider subscribing via RSS for more.