I’m sorry Tory and Roberta, for not being there for you guys.
I’m sorry Mom, for being the horrible son I’ve always been.
Tory, you told me to “mind my own business” in a sense. When you told me to worry more about Thomas and Steven and what’s going on in my life, that’s pretty much what you said.
Well I’ve been doing that.
So now, the only thing I’m going to change, is to just not worry about you guys. Not think about you guys. And not talk to you guys.
I’m done.
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To the rest of you. I may be a little different for a while. I’m coming to a point where things have been getting better for me, but I have to change.
I know I’ve changed since I left home.
And I have my excuses for that…loads of them that can make everything clear and justifiable.
But you don’t want to hear it.
I’m sorry, but I feel alone.
That no one is on my side.
And I have to figure things out.
I need to change so that people will be more willing to actually talk to me and be around me.
It sucks to put it that way, that I have to make my image different to be accepted.
But that’s pretty much the way I feel.
Alone.
And misunderstood.
So let me find myself again.
And I’ll get back to you.
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