I listened to your mix tape during one of my train rides in Europe. I still think about you, and despite everything I still care a lot - more than you probably know. I have words that I've wanted to say for a long while, but as I've expressed, I just don't want to do it over email. I'd rather wait for the right opportunity, the right time, the moment where I know that it's going to matter.

Still, I'd like to share with you the lines that spoke to me the most from your mixtape that day, as they have a general consensus of my feelings right now; something you might possibly feel too...I don't know. Coincidentally, this are the first and last songs, respectively, though I don't think you needed to be told that.

"Something tells me there will come a time.
Tired of that back and forth affair that we've been through,
and thinking more than once it may be time for something new.

Suddently, you'll see him, standing there across the room.
Staring
at
You.

And I wanted to wait till the sun would appear.
Picking flowers and placing them all over our ears.
But you were what you are, and I'm not very far along.
and I'm not very far along..."

"I wait here forever just to...to see you smile, cause it's true: I am nothing without you.
Through it all.
I've made my mistakes - I stumble and fall - but I mean this words...

I want you to know with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul.
I'll hold onto this moment you know, cause I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go."