Yesterday [saturday June 16th] was a very special day.

I had stayed up the night before, until 5 o'clock in the morning.
Only reason I went to sleep was because I had to be at a graduation at 8 o'clock 3 hours later.

I got up at 7.

It was a very special occasion.

People...seniors...my friends...were graduating from high school.

These people I barely even knew.
I was lucky enough to go watch them...to be proud of them.

I wanted...to share in their happiness...

But sleep beckoned me...so at noon I went back home and hit the sack [working nights really screws up your weekend sometimes.]

Eventually I awoke at 5 o'clock.
Spent two hours...doing nothing.
But...myspace...

And calling people...who were all at graduation parties.

I wasn't wanted...because only a few of those graduated...those that I call friends...actually like me.

But that was it...I had no one else to call...everyone was busy.

"Nothing to do..."
"Why don't you go to the beach?" She asked...

"I dunno..." I replied, "Why don't I?"

It took me another hour to decide if I wanted to be at Barnes and Noble or the beach.
But eventally I just got up and walked out the door.
And I drove...

It cost me 7 dollars to park because I'm not considered a Virginia Resident.
No matter.

I'd rather be at Barnes and Noble, but I could do that any day right?
But the beach? Alone?

So I walked...
For 2 more hours...up one way...then turn around and head back.

You wanna know what happened?

Nothing...absolutely nothing.

I tire of going to places...and expecting something to happen.
Expecting to meet someone.
Anything.

Entertainers...
Bands...
Trollies...
Bikes...
Girls...
People...

[I will not become a common street performer]

Nothing...happened...
and yet...

It was...alright.

I think I might do it again...just to go and walk.
People watch.

Maybe next time I'll stop and eat or browse around.

[thanks for the idea ashleigh]

I've decided...that I want a dog.
It would be more fun...I wouldn't be as lonely.

Plus...girls love dogs right?

Today was a very lonely day.
No one to hang out with me.
No place to go.

I'm stuck in my own little world.
I have my apartment...and the surrounding community.

And when everyone else is having their special day...I'm still just trying to live.

I came home and drew.
And then I watched The Two Towers...
and did laundry.

No one to be with.
No one to talk to.
No one to smile at.

Those days are lonely.
I can get by...but it doesn't change the truth.

But...it was still...a special day.

So...I'll smile...and hope someday someone will want to see it.