Published on
January 25, 2009

I lied. [Link]


Now, do I have to fall asleep with Roses in my hand?
Would you get them if I did?
No, you won't, cause you're gone...


You said you meant it,
that there's a piece of me in every single second of every single day,
but if it's true then tell me how we got this way?


He's going outside in the middle of the night with you.
Tell me what I'm supposed to do?
No I'm fine, I could go another time with you.
Tell me why would I want to?


Sweet Tangerine, will you please come back to me?
cause I don't think that these feelings are gonna leave.
Sweet melody, you'll be singin in your sleep,
but this time you're not listenin to a word I say.


It's not my style to lay it on the line.
But you don't leave me with a choice this time.
Why weren't you true?
You know why, I trusted you!


The world has turned black and cold,
and I can't catch my breath.
you rehearsed your lines with rhythmic details,
They matched the pounding in my chest.

The summer came, and you left me with your words
The clever sounds of your mouth that could make me feel so worthless.
and you say, that I am not enough,
but though my heart is breaking open know that I will not be broken.


Where's the love that I'm supposed to have?
It came into my life, and then it ran so fast,
and you were by it's side; my heart was in your hand.
Wish I could turn back time and fix my mistakes
Leave the world behind, erase the pain,
But miracles only happen once-a-day.


My attempts at Love
Are not worth speaking of,
but my dear friend, I'll try again...


I would have offered my life.
Taken you home, made you my wife.
But hearing you now, filling your mouth
With the cowards lies.
You're just a disguise.
Of the girl of my dreams.
But I know.
She's waiting for me.


I can't deny this anymore.
The facts ignored - all done before.
And if there's one in this world,
You let me know you're not that girl.


Sorry that I'm taken aback,
But how I am you never ask,
and I don't need such sympathy,
But a care would be so - woah
nice to have once in a while.
You mean more to me then I could ever tell.
So, Sorry that I'm taken aback,
But I just can't help it.


Nobody's singing about you anymore.
You thought you heard it well you must've heard wrong.


Just like you said, my friend, It's hard to understand.
And now your Vapid Lies surface to the light
And now I stand in line wishing I could cry
You broke my heart and so...
Miss you, leave your fate, Goodbye.


Don't think I've forgotten
You've never liked that necklace.
So cordeal, so rotten -
Kiss Kiss, let's meet for breakfast.
Don't show up so on time.
Don't act like you're so kind.


For what it's worth I believed every word that you said.
So here is what I will say with these last wasted breaths.
Take-take-take-take back your promises,
and the sweet kisses that I thought were only for me.


No, I don't hate you, Don't want to fight you.
Know I'll always love you, but right now I just don't like you,
Cause you took this too far.


I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge.
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge.
I think you know what I'm getting at -
You said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that.

What happened to us?
I heard that it's me we should blame.
What happened to us?
Why didn't you stop me from turning out this way?

and know that I don't hate you.
and know that I don't wanna fight you.
and know I'll always love you.
but right now I just don't.

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